Shamelessly Lazy Post

Why God Took So Long To Give Me A Baby


I can’t even find energy to link to her beautiful cover image right now. It seems it just shows up, because some people wrote simple code!) 

Today, if I were completely candid, I don’t think I’ll ever hear those words (or any like them) from a child of mine. We are in the thick of it with the financial and emotional realities of family building through gestational surrogacy. Today, I’m ready to throw in the towel because it’s just TOO hard.When I read stories like this, I find a bit of hope to press on in all the challenging muck of our journey. My mother-heart beats strong even though it is very weary.  

I don’t know what the future holds for us, but if God is up there…. or out there, or over there, or sitting next to me…making our “me” should be willing wait happily as long as it takes to make that little person. 
The thing I need to work on is the being happy.